GWEN's

2006-04-01T03:10:00.000-08:00

i've given up on the inside
trying to figure out who you are
nevertheless i cant assume,
i've known you the longest
i understand you the best

to people, love maybe in a matter of seconds
to her, learng to like may take a lifetime
or does she just not know what is like, what is love?

today gummy Miss Huina made me think alot
about my circle of friends i thought
sometimes i wonder, have i treasured them
every so often i doubt
but perhaps its just a mere conjecture

now and again, i marvel
at the sheer contemplation
i realized i have just contradicted myself
on how i ought to believe
my life is suppose to be

she ain't the prettiest, but i think she's beautiful

2006-03-31T05:02:00.000-08:00

GWEN LOVES EVERYBODY. well, almost. but not all.

xinying loves gwen

we got HORNYS in the house!

i feel so moody tdy. the weather's like SHIT. and i still have some trng thingy going on tmr. its at 8am, and its a saturday! =(

I GOT DRENCHED. WET, DRIP DROP.

2006-03-28T06:02:00.001-08:00

my brain's seriously fried up. like scrambled eggs!
all those math and physics. KILLING ME.

jasmine yanyi and i make up the triple HOLY. :D we got this cute black box with HOLY BIBLE infront and mint sweets inside in the shape of the cross. COOL right. lol

HUINA is my gummy, so squishy. =x

may God give me eyes to see beauty only the heart can understand.

true love is found
whn you see her flaws
understand her weakness
accept her imperfections
and still cant live without her.
- and its really really true!

char and i got the perfect plan of duplication. muahahahah. the evils are back.

YOU CANT CARRY ME! I'LL TRY HARDER NEXT TIME.

2006-03-28T06:02:00.000-08:00

2006-03-27T04:11:00.000-08:00

today on the bus on the way home, SOOOO embarrassing. i dropped my phone, and its like this stupid thunk sound. and i swear it was pretty loud. and the bus was kinda turning so i cldn't bend down and everyone was watchg me! and the bus break, i nearly fall onto this bunk. oh gosh, i feel like burying myself beneath the soil.

today HUINA's gummy and im bandito bear. :D im too lazy to tell you why. we were studying when we came up with this thing. funny people.

kimberly's strange and funny. not in a bad way. LOL

im going to studyyyyyyy, and thn i can use the phone. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

2006-03-25T04:23:00.000-08:00

i have this feeling im only going to blog on saturdays. mannn i love saturdays. :D

okayyyy. topsy turvy, but still visible.

the entire week was hectic! thr's invest on friday which means rehearsel after sch for the entire wk. plus my mom went overseas which meant plenty of house chores. and darren's sick for uncountable days! thr's tests. and OH MY GOD my wk was terrible. but it passed pretty fast. and HUINA's happily enjoying herself at her friend's bday party. nehhhhnehhh.

2006-03-18T19:25:00.000-08:00

Presenting the Wuliaos

Crime Scene:
Investigating death of Care Bear

Detectives on Scene (7)

Dodge, Eeyore, Squishy, Tigger, Mr Brown and Peichunbear.

Suspicious Items:

Red Pencil, Yellow Comb, Masking Tape

Things to take note:

Why is the Care Bear still smiling

Further investigations will be carried out.

Reporter: Miss Gwen Wuliao

2006-03-18T18:35:00.000-08:00

i miss you and its so hard to say that! your phone's haywire; please please go fix it! i feel as though i've got sooo much to say to you even though we're on the phone now and thn. probably bcos you're sick and stuff so we aren't talkg that much. could you PUUUHHLEZZ take care of yourself, and drink more water! a little is not enough. i like you for who you are. be humble sincere caring and thoughtful; i'll likeeeee you eveeeen more. i miss you i miss you i really do.

i think i'm really paranoid sometimes, i wonder too much. i guess its rly not a good thing. but thats what happens whn you have time alone.

P.S its weird not to hear your voice the instant i wake up.

HUINA: thanks for studying with me on friday. i actually completed my maths hols assignment! with of cos, a little help frm you with my unanswered questions. you're really funnnnnnnnny la, dont worry if i got a bad throat bcos of you. drink it up! thanks for hearing me out. and of cos thank me toooo man! :D

i went to FIOS, and WOW. the people thr are soooo glam. or is it just me being un-glam. =x i mean seriously, probably cos they're fashion students. the guys look, well you knw what i mean right. fashion students. guys. yes. but they're are soooo freaking cool. so many diff kinds of people. the englishmen, the malays. well US. - Fashion Institute of Singapore/

2006-03-11T05:33:00.001-08:00

today i had big breakfast instd of the roti prata i wanted. =( but the company makes all the difference! (:

today thr was logarithms lesson for 7 people. celeste nurul luqman mingzhen nasuha gwen and xinmin! what the entire class took 2 hours to learn, we finished in less than an hour. talk about small groups! :D

today we watched SHAGGY DOG. lmao. its silly and funny. and kuku and nehneh! you shld rly hear how shaggy the dog said i love you. not in dog language but in english! rly cute. :D if only my parrots cld say i love you. oh nvm, soon soon.

tomorrow, OC's one night camp will start. and the very next day wld be sec one NE camp. soooooo, for us- it will be a 4 days 3 nights kinda thing. im going to be DEAD. im going to look like i've nvr slept in decades. im im im going to look like im rotting.

soooooo i shall not blog untill thursday. unless i have the strength and the remainding energy left to do so on wednesday.

AND i have tonnes and tonnes of h/w. pretty much i guess.

L1r5 9 points

2006-03-09T06:04:00.000-08:00

hey boy im gonna light your way.

today HUINA was funnylicious. glad being with you today. LOL. PIZZA HUT!!! lalala, another day. one more time. one more laugh. one more chance. i'll be there for you. AWWWW, EWWWWW, UHHHHHHHH. ahahah! so mushy. xD

today thr'll be no pictures! im too lazy to connect my phone, and here's the part. there ARE NO PICTURES today.

hey boy im gonna drift away with you.

today yanyi had some kinda moodswing. i really wondered wth was going on for the entire of today since recess. you kuku. you cant get mad about such things, whats not meant to be isn't meant to be. AND you're forgetting one impt thing, you cant get evrythg you want dear. everytime you show such an attitude, it rly puts people down. i mean, i can understand. but THE WHOLE DAY? everyone cld tell you're pist. EVERYONE. and everytime i want to knw what happened to you, i'll nvr bother asking. cos you'll just give me that face of yours and NOT answer me AT ALL.

today i had haagendaz chocolate and chocolate chip icecream! i purposely went down, kope money frm my dad. and get the icecream. its kinda like a reward, for doing my h/w anddddd completing one chapter of my olvl physics book. (:

today you said the sweetest thing to me. it made my day. bright and early.

today maths lesson rly suck. and thr'll be a supp class on saturday at 10am! WTH. and i want to go out in the afternoon. i'll be like dead tired by thn.

today i just realised that the investiture date was no longer postponed. its on the 21 of march and we've got so much to do. the 3rd council excos are pushing the souveniers to us to do. i think its their job. we alrd have our exhibits. and ME, EVEN WORSE. i got the exhibits, the council board outside the council rm, and adding on to that is the souveniers. just let me complain for a little while.

and yes, im never gonna let you go.

2006-03-06T06:38:00.000-08:00

LOOK! gwen's like, doing her work. so hardworking, LIKE COOL

poor stuffed up locker.

THE FLOWERS! xD that sounds cheesy. lol.

look at the mess! gwe's on far left, thn charmaine thn jean.

presenting our council room

i spent my entire day in school, down with council meeting. AND JUST DOING NOTHING in the council room. jolene, dont think too much.

HUINA: HEY! hmmmmmm, you seem btr today. you're like me. think untill so much. not worth it alright. dont waste your youth. =x BUT YOU SHLD LOVE HIM. he's worth your while.

2006-03-05T04:07:00.000-08:00

yesterday:
i tell you, i had such a horrible experience. its like, 1.40am in the mrng at j8. i finish my moooovie. i didn't have cash and thr's no more bus. what do you do? WALK home. yes walk, your eyes are not playing tricks on you. and im not talkg abt a 5mins walk, but a 40mins walk. and WHY? bcos i didn't wna wake my parents up to pay for cab, and darren fell aslp. so its like, I SWEAR. i feel as though i didn't have a phone and i didn't have cash. i felt so freaking helpless. and evrywhr's so dark. so many weird noises. so little people. so lifeless. so cold and windy. its just freaky. it keeps getting scarier, frm the blocks opposite, to the smrt beside me. and thn the stupid private houses with their dumb dark alleys. i rly wished you were thr man, i've nvr wanted someone by my side so much. i felt like crying. evrythg was just so scary. i wld nvr evr do that EVER AGAIN. i reached hme arnd 2.30pm. gosh it rly sucks.

hmmm, i thinkkkkkkk pictures cld relate more to my life? thr've been like, picture slides during the past few posts, and aint it btr? (: yes, this is today.

we look rly weird, i cldnt touch the water, and she cldn't cme up, she will wet my papers. :D presenting the WEIRDsquad.

weird people doing weird things. weird photographer taking weird pictures. :D

can you see the G? like, the faint line of it!!! COOOL RIGHT

finally a picture with evryone of us inside!

MY DECADENT CHOCOLATE MOUSSE FRM TCC (:

isn't it just sweet. yanyi screwed me and peifen's picture up. i bet you're gna get jealous if you saw it dee!

say AHHHHH.

heh, a little obscene, but i bought boxers today!

2006-03-04T04:46:00.000-08:00

YEAH TRE! WE MISS YOU! HOPE YOU'RE DOING FINE IN AUSTRALIA!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEIFEN! I LOVE YOU!

look at my smileys on my physics book, my marker doesn't have ink! and its rly horrid. but CUTE RIGHT. =X

huina and gwen!!! we studied at scott's bean today. (:

my cousin, grace. BABY GRACE!

thats gwen and miss chen. and gwen's obviously hunched. :D

luqman with our wonderful relieft teacher miss chen.

miss chen you're such a blast! thanks! you're rly nice.
i used to think relief teachers wld screw our grades up, but miss chen changed evrythg. (: she's wonderful. just a little soft. =x

gwen and xinmin! my hot babe! sooo typical student like aint she. :D

gwen and huina again! huina's elbow hit mingzhen i think. =/

huishan and wancheng

luqman and nara

2006-03-02T03:44:00.000-08:00

today was cool. the uhm, almost the whole day. i cant recall what i dont like, i dont wish to anw. oh crappy thr's some chinese test tmr that has got to do with the chinese variety show they let us watch today. hey i was paying attention man, but i still dont knw how to answer the questions for tmr's test. yanyi's going to be my savior. my babe!

coooool right the last post. all those pictures. :D now i knw im attatched.

i like DEE!

huinaaaa: hope you bought the chocs, im so sorry i cldn't company you today. i feel rly bad!

2006-03-01T07:51:00.000-08:00

hmm, lets see. my life during those past few days. besides this picture.

dont i look rly cute. i think i was in switzerland. and that freaking smile is beginning to grow on me. i think im addicted to it. :D

LOOK! i swear the smile's almost alike. wait, is it a grin?

see! isnt it like a habit or sth?

GWEN IS NOT HORNY. THE CAMERA IS! look, it took the picture by itself. i thought i went bonkers. madness.

look at the silly us. its fun la, i look crazy la. but WULIAO PEOPLE CANNNN. :D

ooooo lalalaaaaa, swensens. now im drooling, i mean. damn its been such a long time. wait, its just last sunday. but heck! its been a long while for me. =)

i want wonka. i like wonka bars. but i like darren more!

meet mr president and our sports and games secretary. dont they make a cute pair. :D

yeah, and that summarise my week so far. :D my results for biology is shocking. 1st test: 20/50, second test on the same topic, 45/50. my addmaths as well. 1st test: 10/25, 2nd test: 20/20. SICK RIGHT. kukubird. goodnight! :D

2006-02-27T03:02:00.000-08:00

i cant seem to get my pictures on the com so i guess i'll do with this.

FUCK, you can scold. i can too!

today was such an extremly flirtatious day. like really, i mean it! people were going crazy winking at each other. nara? yeah, fine. i brainwashed evryone to start flirting instd of paying attention during lesson. how cool it that! you guys shld practise more and master the art of seduction! winking is not good enough. :D

hey huina! i'll come over another day. like sunday. and we can study and i can sleepovr and we can both go to sch together on monday. (: COOL right. lol. besides your house is so near, my mom shld most probably allow.

such a crammish day. evrythg's messed up. my life's topsy turvy today. SO MANY THINGS HAPPENED, so many things going on. but my biology chemistry and emath test wasnt so bad. but i can do much btr if i studied harder for the three tests. which i obviously didn't. and tmr's physics. im going to die!

2006-02-25T04:17:00.000-08:00

sometimes i think im the one having the most fun.
and sometimes the most wuliao.

24February2005

movie mania! The Fog and Rumour Has It. and the winner is.. *drumroll* RUMOUR HAS IT! its like a romantic comedy. but i wonder who can appreciate it. see how sentimental you are. :D guys, its a rare case. =x

HUINA: how are you! i betcha miss me! thanks for studying emaths with me, im taking the test on monday. wish me luck!

25February2005

today suck a little. i didn't get to go out with yanyi. yeah, she went ovr to jasmine's house. which sucks pretty lot cos i ended up with nth to do. and thn comes xinying my saviour! lol i learnt my emath! practised practised!

To MISTER DEE: you're my best! i nvr knew you were so emotional actually. you look like that kindda tough and 'cold hearted' guy. i nvr knew your soft side. thanks for understanding me. you rly do, and i got to say, you knw me extremly well! (:

dont like me if you dont knw who i rly am. which is the case. you dont knw the way i speak, the way i act. you only knw me frm afar. thr's no point. perhaps im not what you expect. i dont even talk to you. if someone pretends to be me, i swear you wldn't even be able to tell the difference. think about it, you're not fit to like me. and perchance, im not good enough for you. so you shld probably end all these. its just crap.

i want someone who will like me for who i am on the inside! (:

2006-02-22T20:43:00.000-08:00

look at mini us! we're like small small small. the fourth council's gna be really miniature. but cute aint it! :D this is me amir and char's first trip to another sch's investiture. hwachonginstituition. im telling YOU, OUR SCH'S TOUR IS LIKE 10MINS. and THEIRS IS LIKE 1H and NOT COMPLETE YET! bloodyman! its its its BIG and COOL. :D thr's like a room for evry CCA, wait. they call it EP3. thr's a pretty nice track with softball and rugby field. the swimming pool for thm to swim whnevr time they want. a gym with a hell lotta gymnastic equipments as big as their sch hall. and their weights room. which is somewht like our sch gym, but much btr equipped. BUT they are building a new one. chickennehneh. they have a hostel, a hwachonginternational school and they're also building a new school wing. what is this man!

hey look! just describing the sch took so much space!

huina i hope you're okay.

i dont feel good, sth's wrong. am i going crazy? :D and i skipped sch just to slp. but still i got to study in the afternoon. so goodbye. (:

2006-02-21T06:57:00.000-08:00

LOOK AT THE TISSUES! and my mucus.
i think i grew lighter. i blew out like one-tenth of my weight! :D

anw, i went to huina's house today. she's like this cute clown! not a bad thing! thanks, i rly had fun. and i studied! YOU DIDN'T REALLY did ya! lol.

i got the post! the counting of votes was so scary. gwen aini whyekeat, gwen, gwen aine whyekeat. LOL. cute laa. and yes charmaine, all of us got it. we hooked pinkys rmb? lol

2006-02-20T04:22:00.000-08:00

. li

I WONDER WHOSE HAND WAS IT. but niceeee right!

the sun's setting setting setting, thr's gna be like no more sun. =/

probably, the last part is the most beautiful.

today actually suck! untill the last part. i guess it made up for evrythg! lol.
lets see, miss three buses. forgot my allowance. forgot my contact case and my file.
its EVRYTHG! but but the last part of my day made up for evrythg that gone wrong today!
maybe its rly true, the last part is always most beautiful

HUINA: DONT BE ******* alright. evryone will go through that phase. its natural. dont give it too much thoughts. its spose to be simple, you knw it shld. so think less! it'll all be fine.

i just enjoyed myself today. thr'll be chinese test and the counting of votes tmr. and on wednesday i got to go hwachong's investiture and i still got to study for chem and emath =( my emath's gna suck.

2006-02-19T04:57:00.000-08:00

we look rly rly weird but i guess its okay. probably a form of relieving stress :D

im beginning to think that peifen's always the one taking photos.

oh crap, i think i deleted the one of me and peifen by accident. damn this always happens. :X

tmr's really going to be horrible. i wish tmr nvr comes. :D thr's like chinese test which im going to study through again later and the speech and voting. EEEEEE. and and thr's library. :( its going to be such an awful day. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

today's like fun fun fun. i love disturbg yanyi. :X FUN RIGHT PEIFEN! lol some pictures are sensored so i cant upload it here. yanyi will just chop my head off. we took prints. really funny ones. we saved a strip for aikcheng! i cant wait to pass it to her tmr. (:

okay im off to ice cream and thn i'll hit the books! goodnight!

huina: i saw the clip you like, but i didn't have the budget. my wallet's just flies.

aldric: i knw your secret! its not save. (:

2006-02-18T07:01:00.000-08:00

a little blur but nvm, its the clip i bought for huina. (:
its like this fuzzy thinggggg, and hse btr use it! its like the first thing i bought today! LOL

im sick sick sick again. but you knw, i feel alot btr than last time. MUAHAHAHA. and i actually took the correct med you see. and fever's gone! if not i wldnt be blogging. probably bcos im talkg to you too! yeah yeah!

HUINA: you silly little girl, if you're rdg this, and you LIKE THE CLIP. i btr see you using it (: heh.

tmr i'll be going out with yanyi and peifen to study CHEENA. GAY GAY GAY! so irritating. i think im going to die on monday. stupid chinese test. and and thr's the speech and voting on monday too.VOTE FOR ME! dammit.

yanyi: dont be sooooooo worried ok. (: dont be depressed. i knw you cant help it, but its rly silly. cos cos cos, *it's not ignoring you. so dont think to much. *things are always like that. ALWAYS man. i dont knw wht's wrong with thm but yeah. they put others infront of you. so dont worry ok. it doesn't mean anythg besides that fact.

love's like this huge issue! and you knw what! i think like's a bigger issue. LOVE IS HARD. (: like is simple and easy. its nice and cute. wait, evrythg's sounding rly wrong. i dont knw what to say. i shld just forget it lol, i cant seem to put it in words.

and and and, of cos today i must have gone out with someone. and that is none other than daddy! i rly had fun. all the talkg. but i realise i was rly tired. thanks so much for evrythg today. (: and we met soo many people!

here i come! here i go!
uhoh dont stop bitch move
you see thm headlights, you hear the fucking crowd
start that goddamn show, GWEN'S cmg through.

2006-02-17T07:56:00.000-08:00

OMG LA, i type so long and my computer went BONKERS. it SHUT DOWN! freaking hell.

anw, while waiting for my friend to call. i got restless and did some reflections. i thought about happy stuff. and i realise, WHY NOT I JUST BLOG HAPPY. at least i wont bring other people down with me right? lol. UNLESS my day is rly like, THE MOST IMPERFECT day. yeah, thn that's a good reason to complain and grumble right. lol. i FEEL SMILEY already.

i wanna write a book! The Happy and the Sad. 2 pages of sadness, and 198 pages of pure JOY! provided i have sufficient HAPPY THOUGHTS to make it that far. wldn't it be cool. HAHAHAHAAHAAA. but i have a feeling i'll be just the laziest bum on earth. lol.

and and, i wna visit the old folks hme. AND JUST SMILE MY WAY THROUGH! *beams* wait, im exaggerating. lol. but rly rly! its pretty easy to make the old folks smile, just smile nicely at thm. =x I GUESS LA, or maybe i look nice thats why. =xxx LOL. unless you're some retarded kid with cross-eyes and 2 teeth missing (they'll probably be freaked out), it shldnt be too much of a problem. and it doesnt take much of a hassle to say a hello and a thankyou right?

IM GAY IM GAY! oh gosh, I ADMIT IM GAY! hahahah. HUINA HELP ME! you funny girl. *scratch scratch! im going to miss alot of cheekcells today. : D or not, my cheek cells wld be folded! oh hell, im cursing myself!

time check: 5 minutes past twelve. I WOKE UP TO BLOG OKAY

perhaps, I REALLY REALLY 100% positively extremly definitely exaggeratingly exceedingly like you. when you say sth nice, its like, i felt sweety; TOTALLY. like damn weird right. maybe i expect too much of you, but i spose.. I ROCK LA CAN. i can smile to myself like some insane asshole, and its all cos of YOU. all your fault la. LOL

2006-02-17T04:37:00.000-08:00

maybe you guys hate me; perchance, i hate you guys too.

this is Dodge, char and bobby gave it to me as my bday present. (:

today wasnt so bad, i heard i scored full marks for my amath test. but i rly wonder if their playing a trick on me. i'll be glad if they didn't. and and and I HATE PHYSICS. its like a total bore laaaaa. why must Newton be born. mr chan you're right man!

i hate you. sometimes. i just realize, maybe i hate you. but if so why am i talkg to you so much. i think of you, but whn i think, its all the bad stuff i cld evr think about. but not always la. thr's always nice ones that make me smile. and if its all the bad stuff, why do i still like you. you're much nicer and all recently, but that made me more worried. like, if you're going to be like that. and the next youre all mean, and its such a big change. i wld just hate you more. but if i hate you, why do i still like you. and this SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS.

Infactuation is easy, Love is hard.
Like is most important?

why do people make promises whn they cant keep it!
and tearing the entire elections form out is btr.
you cant hurt me that way. you got to try harder than that.

2006-02-15T04:02:00.000-08:00

huina and gwen

the four of us!

the trip to pulau semakau waaaaaas, ok i spose. a little boring. and had a little problem with my contacts. but the fun part was on the bus. when serena huina sindy wancheng xueqian xinmin daniel luqman kenneth and me played loads of games. its like relieving childhood memories. those primary school childish games. and weird weird stuff la. so funny-nie! but FUN okaaaay.

i was thinking, perhaps its wrong for me to like you in the first place. you're not the kind that wld, i dont knw how to explain. but you're probably nvr the one. why did i like you. its rly fustrating. and i dont knw if its just me, or *mumbles some stuff that no one ought to hear*. maybe its me. perhaps im irritating you. hey please tell me if i am alright. and am i paranoid?

wenting hit bullseye today when i hugged her. she reminded me; i nvr cried for a guy. and i never will, right? but today was the first time i hugged my friend so tight. i kinda didn't wna let go, i was afraid i wld cry. how silly of me right. thats when she hit jackpot.

2006-02-14T03:05:00.000-08:00

how i spent my valentines
9 people spending the entire day waiting for one's valentine.
ONE person's valentine.
poor thing. it rly suck feeling like tht. perhaps, i knw how it feels like. but i shant rub it in, shld i?
well, at least some people get their eyecandy. (:

today mrs chung mentioned my daddy and his results. (GOOD NEWS LA) and i was rly proud. its rly true! i have no idea why, but i just felt that, cool! she mentioned aldric the daddy! yeah. *run and hide under the bed*

CHEER UP ROY! im sorry i didn't buy you any chocolates like i said. cos i told myself noone is going to recieve anythg frm me this year. i aint being mean, i have my reasons. (:

i think i rly like you.
its just REALLLLEEHH weird la, but yes yes. sad to say. =/

2006-02-13T05:06:00.000-08:00

i saw the 3 stars in a row today, and and, THE MOON LOOKS RLY BEAUTIFUL with the clouds. but the tickling didn't help much did it.

tmr's valentines. and i think its the first time im recieving things frm people, the past few years its just my past boyfriends. weird isn't it.

you knw, i rly wna knw how it feels like to die. and live to tell the tale.
im blabbering again. :D

vanessa: pleasure to meet you today. you rock. you owe me my letter.
jessica, weishun, vanessa's other friend and tim: you four too!
mister somebody: thanks for studying with me, and watchg me eat. :D

i feel happy today. and smiley.
its like, the sun on a windy day with blue skies and white clouds. fields of flowers in gold, crimson, pink, blue. just lying across the meadow, feeling the wind through your hair, gazing at the beautiful miracles god created, feeling loved and the contentment of being with your beau.

isn't that evrythg you need to make your day, but it'll nvr happen. (: how ironic.

2006-02-12T04:48:00.000-08:00

ok, WE WENT OUT TO STUDY TODAY! a little obvious. AND, i manage to do my identities and did a review question for yanyi. DONT PLAY PLAY! it was the last question of the review questions. (goes all proud and tall) not tall technically. but FEEL.

and this is me and jasmine's cake. (: it taste goodylicious. NO, i bet it will if only i cld taste it! (blocked nose) and we ordered an egg sandwich too.

im still sick and im feeling awfully dreadful. i feel like nauseating. (get me a bucket!) and yes, i ignored the fact that i have a super bad cough and decided to eat chocolate fudge! interesting huh. :D

i wish to see rainbow again tmr.
i wish to hear a goodnight frm you every night! it feels nice since you dont say it that often. im not asking for much am i. (: doesnt take much to say goodnight and make the person on the other line happy.
i wish a day where i dont feel hate.
i wish my parents stayed young.
i wish my sister the best love she cld ever recieve.
i wish you to feel loved.
` but the downside is, most wishes dont come true. why do i even bother. :D

2006-02-10T01:57:00.001-08:00

i still dont feel well. NOT WELL. no no.
and and, I GOT A NEW PHONE.
finally, one of my own after three years. and yes yes. i love it. (: K750i. shiokadoodledooo!
ahaha. im blabbering. i got SO MANY TESTS next wk, thr wldn't be one day w/o it besides monday i think. ALOT ALOT. mom claims im so stressed that my eyes look as though i haven't slept in days.

xinying: c'mon. you'll get in. trust me! if not you can kick my ass.

today mingzhen and gladys sat with them. not us. cos the three of us, yanyi aikcheng and i cldn't sit. not enough space. i cant say they're intruding. but what r we going to do in the future. seriously. they said squeeze. but 5 in one bench. you got to be kidding me la. how to eat. =( i bet my ass will be half off the bench. suppose we see how on monday.

tuesday's valentines! oooolala. and and and, i want wonka bars and ferreros. *prays cough will be okay by then*. and wednesday's the trip to pulau semakau. shld be pretty 'enriching' i presume. LOL

so much pictures i tell yall!

2006-02-10T01:57:00.000-08:00

2006-02-10T01:56:00.001-08:00

WINDY! i got to say, we all look weirdly odd. :D

2006-02-10T01:56:00.000-08:00

ahah

2006-02-10T01:55:00.000-08:00

EHHHHH> retards. =x

2006-02-10T01:53:00.001-08:00

gwen and peifen

2006-02-10T01:53:00.000-08:00

peifen just look so alone with i think thats minnie.

2006-02-10T01:52:00.000-08:00

fly fly!

2006-02-10T01:51:00.000-08:00

2006-02-09T05:49:00.000-08:00

im really in no mood to blog. my cough is getting worse. and the creeps of talking to the crowd in the morning is getting to me. im dying soon.

today suck. i feel bad.

2006-02-08T04:27:00.000-08:00

you knw, it may sound a little weird but i think that:

aliens would find the prettiest girl on earth hideous.
and so do we to their prettiest.
probably to thm, large mouth, weird eyes, funny ears, and revolting smell is pretty.
and for us, its just the opposite.

sorry, i've been day dreaming in class. :D

anyway, i've been paying attention for physics. COOL EH! like for the first time.

sometimes, i find that like, i need to hear all the negative points about him. just to knw whether do i like him for who he really is. is he putting on a show, just to be nice. i want to knw what's behind the facade. i want to knw if hearing all those bad stuff about him, i'll still be able to accept all his shortcomings. thn i knw i really like him for being him.

but pity no one wants to tell me.

2006-02-07T05:30:00.000-08:00

the GIRLY:
i feel like kicking you out of my life
print your face out and use it as a dart board
the NASTY:
digging your brains out from your nose to play basketball
gorging your eyes out to play ping pong
pulling out your intestines for skipping ropes
using your arms to invent new torture methods
the VULGAR:
im gonna chop your body into fucking bits
leave thm to fucking rot in the forest
let the dogs piss on your fucking bones
so you can leave the fucking world alone
the DOTA:
you are a gay piece of noob shit

THE STRAIGHTFORWARD:
i want you outta my life, you just cant seem to. you're like parasite.

2006-02-06T05:08:00.000-08:00

you know, perhaps the rainbow really made my day.
bright and early in the morning.
and my wishes probably come true.
i mean it! seriously.
probably

anw, the physics test was alllriiiighhhhhht, just maybe the last part. which really really pist me off. like WHAT THE HELL la, i cld have gotten the answer. but i shldn't think about it anymore now shld i. thr's biology test to worry about, TMR TMR TMR. like TOMORROW. :D its like SOOOOOO hard to place my like, so-called 'understanding' into words. i am going to like, spend half the time thinking about how to phrase my sentence thn actually doing the work. bloody hell.

the HILL was fantastic. THANK YOU MR. i really enjoyed lying on the hmmm, crispy grass. :D the moon drenched hill and the breeze. and of cos, i wldnt be thr if thr wasnt you. i wldn't dare to anyway. i nvr enjoyed myself tht much for quite awhile now. gracias, merci, danke, xie xie ni, thankyou, dank je. and many more languages all over the world!

VANESSA:
yay, you recieved my letter. like finally after a gazillion years. i love you too.

2006-02-05T06:06:00.000-08:00

watch her hop, and praise my workmanship. =x

2006-02-05T06:03:00.000-08:00

watch her walk

2006-02-05T06:02:00.001-08:00

i knew it! I KNEW IT! my photography rocks!!!!

2006-02-05T06:02:00.000-08:00

and then thr's the watch me hide!

2006-02-05T06:01:00.001-08:00

run running ran

2006-02-05T06:01:00.000-08:00

HUN and I, my workmanship. my MASTERPIECE!

2006-02-05T06:00:00.000-08:00

i tell you, yunhan rocks here laaa.

2006-02-03T16:59:00.000-08:00

good morning! rise and shine! time check: 9am
im early today! i guess bcos i slept at 6pm last night.
all bcos someone wanted to sleep, so i went along as well.
cool aint it, solid 13 hours. i woke up at 8am. whoppie dooo!

i dreadfully want to go out today, omgoodness. i wonder if marisse is free.
i mean, really i wanna! its a saturday for christ's sake.

and thn comes sunday whr thr'll be a class gathering. which half the people wont go. and i got to study for my physics and bio test. I LEFT MY BIO FILE IN SCHOOL. got to rely on the fucking textbk which mdm yong nvr used. this is gonna suck. nvm, monday im going to study again. so its both sunday and monday.

and again and again and again.

2006-02-01T06:16:00.000-08:00

i had dinner with a couple of people i dont rly knw. together with my sister and lynn jiejie. i am STUFFED. literally. my tummy feels like its going to explode at any moment. and i got scolded for calling some weird veggie a dead worm. =/

i keep thinking of sth the entire day. it really made me smile. and its a secret i cant say. school was alright i guess. first day after 4 days of CNY. hoooboy. sleepy. talking about that, CNY was such a DEAR BORE. i mean, yeah. i agree with aikcheng. its lacking sth. i just cant figure out what.

im afraid, i'll fail my amaths test. i mean, lets see. 40% of the class pass only, what chance have i got?

a visit to the crematorium.

2006-01-31T03:31:00.000-08:00

you knw, secrets are meant to be kept. and im pretty sure that everyone has at least one secret kept to thmselves and not a single soul besides thm wld knw. even i have secrets that not even the closest of friends knw. and thats the way the cookie crumbles.

aikcheng and yanyi,you two are like small buds blooming in spring.but fear not, for you both will become bright and beautiful and wonderful sunflowers by mid summer. and i'll be the gardener. listening to your woes and helping you to grow and enjoy the world.

sorry, you both seem to me like small babies.

and peifen, you are like mother nature. you help us blossom and guide us. you're always there for us, your patience and kindness will one day be appreciated, do not be sad. you're letter shows that you lack the confidence and strength you need. dont be afraid, you will always have the three of us. we'll be there for you like how you guide us through the stormy weathers.

2006-01-30T04:58:00.000-08:00

thr's a love that cld fall down like rain
let forgiveness wash away the pain
& no one really knws what they're seachg for
this wrld is crying for so much more

my cousins and i were relieving childhood memories. gosh, i didn't knw thr was so much to talk about. anddddd, we look at old photos. i saw all my relatives grow up from secondary school till they get married. its like, wow. so much memories. i'm going to keep my childhood pictures and show my child one day, if i ever have one.

i saw photos of me when i was young too, and guess what! everyone says im the nicest looking. LALALA. =xxxx c'mon, its my blog. so much for being egoistic.

i've nvr met someone like her who kinda like displayed such altruism up till today while i was walking pass the old folks hme.

2006-01-29T07:49:00.000-08:00

perhaps, chinese new year's not so nice after all.
hongbaos are alright.
i didn't get to eat my favourite snacks.
and i'm damn tired.

to vanessa (its in the letter):
today i can complain because the weather is rainy
or i can be thankful bcos the grass is watered for free

today i can grumble because of my health
or i can rejoice bcos i'm alive

today i can cry bcos the roses have thorns
or i can celebrate bcos the thorns have roses

today i can complain bcos thr's school
or i can eagerly be filled with new tidbits of knowledge

today i can moan bcos thr's no vanessa
however i knw, she's always there;

like the sun to the flowers
like the trees to the sparrows
like the rain to the grass
and like a bestfriend to gwen

2006-01-28T02:51:00.000-08:00

this is vanessa's letter to gwen. it made her smile.

this is what some of it says,

The Yellow:
hey gwen. you're always full of sunshine and love. you remind me of sunflowers in the summer and the pure innocent falling snow in winter! (:
the best friend that any girl could ever wish for. i'd just love to tell you that i'll always love you and i'll always be there for you k!
keep your head high always.
with love, bonbreaking hugs, crazy punches and saliva drooling kisses.
your bf, vanessa.

The Black:
hello gwen.
rmb the crazy things we used to do?
remember the friendship tree?
remember the prefect duty?
remeber the joy and carefree-ness?
just remember our happy times.
it'll chase away your dark clouds

how we used to talk on the phone for hours.
how we scare ourselves infront of the mirror?
babe, i'm always here for you.

she really made my day.

2006-01-27T07:59:00.000-08:00

i got locked out, and i swear im going to bring my house key out whrevr i go frm now on. i not stupid too 2 is alright i guess. and fearless pretty much awesome. : D

i feel awkward, and worried. perhaps im just paranoid.
maybe.

but sometimes i really wonder, is it just my thinking, or is it really happening.
perchance, im just thinking too much.

i hope so

school ended, and its new year. man do i love the goodies.

Welcome to the dead blog:D; *

2006-01-25T03:35:00.000-08:00

different shades of the crimson orange sunset seeps through my room window. ( trying to be descriptive. : D ) laid in bed reading The Five People You Meet in Heaven. the story is fantastic, it seems so real. likes its really true. the story is just bittersweet lovely. and of cos, indulging in chocolates.

extracted:

Lost love is still love , it takes a different form that’s all. You cant see their smile, bring thm food, tousle their hair or move thm arnd a dance floor. But whn those senses weaken, another heightens. Memory. Memory becomes your partner. You nurture it, you hold it. You dance with it. Life has to end. Love doesn’t.

gracious thanks to ash for chemistry.
mummy for the black pumps although i dont rly REALLY fancy it, but yeah its cool.
xinmin luqman daniel xueqian nurul for the laughter in class.
teachers for teaching despite how horrible most of you are.

and gonna try playing a song on piano.
goodbye.

2006-01-24T05:53:00.000-08:00

tests and more tests.
school and more school.
i cant wait for chinese new year, all the good food.
i am gonna stuff myself with goodies.
and thn i'll get all the ulcers.
but aey, who cares.

i feel so smiley today, despite the fact that thr'll be tests tmr. how cool. and i feel freaking fantastic. lol. might be the ferraro ( whtevr you spell it ) that litying gave me in the morning. oh gosh, i miss chocolates. i miss wonka fudge. i miss twix!

im homosexual. right.

why think so much at hme, its like my thinking grounds. and no one can interrupt me. heh. in sch, its like you have to smile pay attention entertain and just laugh your way through the day. and when you get hme, all your thoughts come streaming into your conscious mind and you start thinking. (The Thinker) at least it gives you sth to do, and sth to worry about.

i missed ElizabethTown. wth. and i want to catch Cheaper by the Dozen 2.

2006-01-23T03:29:00.000-08:00

i was trying to study, and i end up ransacking my sister's drawer. and i found her old specs! and guess what, i got funky! : D so retarded la. i suppose i didn't study at all.

2006-01-23T03:01:00.000-08:00

you knw i really really dont feel like telling you.
cos you are SO GONNA ignore me afterthat.
so its like, awwwhhhh shucks.

think about it.
will you ignore someone if that person likes you?
well, i mean if the person that likes you is all nerdy geeky, thn you'll feel uneasy and pukish.
or like, that person's really yucky and aiyah, like just a NONO.
you wld simply ignore that person right esp if he/she likes you.

thats the way i think, so i'm gna regret promising you i'll tell you.
i bet you knw who you are by now.

2006-01-21T22:25:00.000-08:00

you knw, sometimes i really feel like telling you i like you. but i guess im just not those sort of girls that wld admit their feelings so easily. i'm not saying that its a bad thing, but perhaps they are more daring. i have a stupid amath test tmr and i'm on the verge of dying, again.

it carries an extraodinary emotioal resonance. it holds the memory of a candlelit gaze of a long dead lover, a stolen kiss in a moon drenched garden, a warm hug on the crispy blue green grass. everyone it touches turns to dust, yet it itself remains unblemished, an inviolable frangment of beauty, a silent witness to history tumbling through the centuries.

my shoulders hurt. my leg muscles hurt. so much for CIP. we got bullied! and got really dirty and filthy and disgusting and smelly.

today's also jessica's birthday and we had a great deal of fun! lets just say we played treasure hunt, hide and seek for some childish reason, made her hold her own cake and sing happy birthday to herself around wheelocks, played with ice cream and had a good dinner.

i guess it made my day. the morning really suck. 17 blocks seperated by bishan park? wth.

2006-01-21T22:24:00.000-08:00

this grape icecream was the more acceptable one. the other color was a mixture of EVERYTHING except the sorbets. and it kinda taste like bubblegum.

2006-01-21T22:23:00.000-08:00

how cool is this. the exact same thing we used to cook raw food. ahahah. jessica's birthday rocks!

2006-01-19T23:47:00.000-08:00

me and amanda rock socks/

2006-01-19T23:46:00.000-08:00

look at the weathr. this is what boring people do at hme during a gloomy day. i feel like im being caged up. =/

2006-01-19T06:29:00.000-08:00

today is absolutely B FUGGLY.

B Fuggly: refers to someone or something that is beyond ugly. its butt fucking ugly; its ugly beyond words.

today is awfully boring. and lessons are so nasty, i have i feeling it wants to kill me. im going to die soon. i cant help it, i have to say that. (: oh you knw wht, i think my class is cool. LOL. we delay lessons! go up one floor and walk one round, go up another floor and thn another round. how cool! and dearest aikcheng got us into the funeral walking fever! and thr is the, oh i thought its physics and the class just followed me craze. lol. we rock so much.

NOOOO, never! i like boy a. (: BOY A BOY A BOY A!

2006-01-18T01:36:00.000-08:00

( finds ear plugs desperately but to no avail ) : D mom's playing yucky music.

dear friend need not fear, no matter what you still got us! and whats not meant to be will nvr be, dont brood over it, let it pass! but i believe you didnt make the wrong choice. dont agonize over it.
period.

i suddenly feel that my mother is no longer young. ok, she IS no longer young, 50+ . and well, i nvr knw how long she will live for and stuff. i always take her forgranted. and i always get annoyed whn she nags. yet i simply cant bring myself to take her nagging. its unbearably horrendous. i feel so awful.

nawwwww, dont lieeeeeeeeeeee!
LYD, its all your fault. o's stress is getting to me. you and all your whining. asshole, i'm gna die next year. peer pressure is trying killing me already. the class is so geeky, its stinks.
ahah, nurul said i got this super bad habit. i keep saying sth about dying. like, i'm gna die or you're trying to kill me. which i obviously dont. its only like once in awhile. hello? you are such a weirddie.

2006-01-17T04:47:00.000-08:00

I DID NOT CHANGE ALDRIC, NOOOOOOOOOO. i did not turn girl schoolish. NOOOOOOOO. and i still dont knw what's Kl. but yeah, i look behind the eyes now. (: its a good thing! you probably nvr realized that cos i nvr showed this side of me to you, you're always so jolly. bet you dont need someone like me to pull you down.

i think, boy a is well. better. i guess. i dont knw. its like, i'm closer. even though i dont see any good qualities about him. =x love is love? but hey! i'm open to any girls! (: single and bisexual > : D *prays not alot of people is reading this*

i'm hating chinese, aikcheng got inpatient teachg me. i'm cool.

oh no gladys, you read my blog. =xxxxx HAHAHAHAHAH. and yes, boy a and b cant be solved by equations. LOL you crazy retard.

ahhh, vanessa. we shld really meet up. YOU DIDN'T TELL ME ANYTHING ABOUT TIMMY. =x lol. MEAN! i got the question right like finally, how cool it tht man! after realizing that it was carelessness, just a simple - bringing the number over that screwed the question. how silly, i nvr spot my own mistakes. and alrren! you didn't spot it too. you suck too. : D

is my acting really that bad yanyi and xinying? =x

2006-01-16T05:37:00.000-08:00

yeah alrren. its true, i've nvr blogged for like so long. just didn't feel like and didn't have the time to. ok, i'm just lazy.

the sun's finally out and my ulcers are finally getting better. school work is piling up and bestfriends are straying.

i'm in a fix, i dont knw who i rly like. or whether i actually like either one of thm. xinying, you're the only one that knws evrythg. please dont tell anyone. and dont remind me about it. i feel like, well. boy a expects too much frm a girl, and i feel like he got high expectations thrfore i feel inferior. boy b is just nice friendly and rly like someone frm the inside. but i knw he hasnt gotten over his ex. boy a is closer to me and i knw boy a btr. but is he the one?

how muddled.

no one reads this. wld it matter if i blog.

2006-01-09T02:57:00.000-08:00

MOOVE BITCH
GET OUT THE WAY
GET OUT THE WAY BITCH
GET OUT THE WAY

the computer ganged up with darren to type this.

fine, and gwen.

2006-01-09T00:42:00.000-08:00

dear heaven, are the rainy days gonna end?
its gloomy, its wet, its sad, its somber.
and amongst the grey clouds,
thr's only this little tint of sunlight coming through.
and whr's the rainbow that people say wld come after the rain?

2006-01-07T09:49:00.000-08:00

its been ages since i've bloggie blog blog.
been really busy, with sch work.
and the secondary ones.
the guys are an annoying batch of people.
the girls, are simply adorable. (:
i admit thr are pretty cute lil peeps, both genders.
and thr's a guy who will be super duper cute next time whn he's older.
cute as in goodlooking cute. not the one i mentioned earlier on which was, childly cute.

i knw playing maple's gay.
but i just want to teleport.

and xinying, i dont hate you.

guess what, i got double cheena on tuesday.
and its a public holiday!!
damn i hate chinese.

2006-01-03T04:30:00.000-08:00

the world shouldn't just kill themselves, as that would cut off all reason those clinging on for their life in hospitals to live.
life itself is a gift too precious, it's not an opportunity for evil but instead an opportunity for good to overthrow evil in every aspect,
it's a heartache to see you in such misery,
but everytime ur down,
take a look around,
there are always friends here and there,
to show you how much they care.
if they all were to shoot themselves in the head,
would that be what you want when you awake,
a world without hate or love,
missing out the greatest gift, love.
as in love you'd feel perfect,
without it, no where near that.
so as you can see,
you've got a lack of vital energy.
yours sincerely,
desmond-

thank you.

2006-01-02T05:06:00.000-08:00

the world is unbearable, detestable, horrible, disgusting, insufferable, intolerable and stupid .

there's more. just shant say.

and guys.. i shall touch on that topic some other time.

2005-12-31T20:34:00.000-08:00

now let me tell you, how fucking screwed the world is.
somewhere in the future..

31december 3000

dear diary,
the world is ending. its so miserably hopeless. like fucking desperate dont you think so? i wonder what it's like before humans ever existed. how wonderful! please dont tell me it'll be peacful cos its an absolute DUH. you bet it is! ok back to my subject. i think the world suck because of us, like HEY! including me. c'mon, its like worldwide discrimination. its fugly, damn it. its even worse than ugly. its hideous! 100x more revolting. why not everyone put a gun towards their head, and BANG! now it aint worldwide discrimination, its worldwide suicidal day. and the earth fell silent. no more crying, no more screaming, no more cursing, no more hating. like FUCK, yeah baby. and my dear diary, you'll live to tel lthe new world how horrible the world once used to be. you'll be famous, tell everyone, the remnants of the past. and i'll be up there watching you, bathing in alls fame and glory.

P.S now dont worry, i'll be smiling a genuine smile.

with much love; my last entry to you,
GWEN.

this is totally undeniably positively stupid. but, do i look like a care? its just the back cover of the book and i'm just going to use it for two years.

2005-12-31T08:58:00.000-08:00

its the new year. is that bad?

how come i dont feel anything like, special. or maybe not special but like, i dont knw.
perhaps new year is no big deal after all, like. hey! its just a new year, its nothing new nothing important. its just another year like all others.

what's so special?
i ask myself, why countdowns?

or am i just whining cos i'm not partying or sth, which i'm like SUPPOSE to be at stacy's.

2005-12-31T04:02:00.000-08:00

much thanks to yanyi for wrapping books with me.
much thanks to casse for sticking with me and yanyi for halfday.
much thanks to darren for watching narnia with me ytd.

new year doesn't feel so new year.
annyway, in a few days i'll be posting what i wrote across my chemistry book.

2005-12-30T05:30:00.000-08:00

the world is miserably hopeless.
poor thing, i really pity all of you.
i wonder how was it like 1000 years ago;
when everything was still beautiful.
now the world's so fugly, its worse than ugly.

this

2005-12-28T02:59:00.000-08:00

this will alwayd remain a mystery.
its like a ticking clock in an empty home
time passes but no one knows.

love me love me, NO. hate me instead for being such a bitch for thinking i like you.
why? cos i dont want to, and i dont think i do.
i used to THINK i do, but no longer.
you're not meant to be.
perhaps you're wondering why i'm thinking this way
well, maybe just FUCK.
Stop it Gwen, stop.

hopefully cold shoulders and empty speeches work.
i wouldn't be thinking this way if you're the one.
STOP!! ahhh dammit.

am i sad?
if i am, why am i still so happy and wild when i'm out with my friends.
which is really me?

2005-12-27T03:13:00.001-08:00

probably you were never meant to be
i lost something precious i hold so dear today
could it be a sign from God,
telling me that i should let go?
i thought i wld nvr like you
but nvr did i expect a day wld cme
whn your ignorance brought me hurt
i know no one knows, neither do i,
if i really feel sth for you.

even so i never want to love again
for the hurt and pain that comes with is is unbearable
but what if you're the one?
what if you're meant to be?
i'm just afraid to take up the responsibility again
FOR
the people i truly love i was nvr with fully, i always make the wrong choices and i dont want to do it again.

do i know whats love at all?

2005-12-26T04:51:00.000-08:00

i want somebody to love!
i want somebody to spend my whole year with!
and hopefully my whole life!

will you be the one?

2005-12-24T22:25:00.000-08:00

its christmas! finally. christmas eve's over. sadly.

i suddenly feel that like, my parents are no longer young and all. i suddenly got worried. you knw, old age comes sickness comes death. *TOUCH ALL THE WOOD IN THE HOUSE* no way, i hope not. but seriously, i've nvr wondered like, what happens whn they're old. they are alrd, and its so fast. i nvr expected. hahah. i have no idea what i'm talking.

christmas eve was kinda alright. i went out with yunhan, thn over to marisse's house at night. thats abt it. i met cici! she was over. like, i've nvr seen her for such a long time and all. ahahahah.

thanks for all the christmas gifts and thanks lyn jiejie for the top. and andrew for whatever you got me. thats about it. oh, and celeste for the projectshop handphone strap, you rly dont have to actually, cant you just let me pay a little? *SCREAMS HEAD OFF* ( its 20bucls ) silly girl, but i love it alot. thanks!

to the OC: merry christmas!
yunhan was telling me its so weird that i go out with them, yeah. i find it a little, but i dont mind lah. hahah. like all the heh, specs and skirts and socks. hahahahahah. i shant say anymore least i get karma.

takre care evrybody.

2005-12-23T02:45:00.000-08:00

my posts are somewhat irregular due to some circumstances, take for example working again. ytd was my last day, and how euphoric i am! *sings a christmas tune*

well, tmr's christmas eve and i'm going to spend my day with marisse. not like its something different this christmas, but as far as i can rmb, my christmasdays are always spent doing something with her! :D

bryan has grown very tall. tremendously tall dude. and yes, perhaps andrew was right. ben chang looks NOT AS TALL AS LAST TIME. i saw him at juntion 8's food court today. and i realise that, OH! jean and xinmin knew thm too, i totally forgot they were kinda like from peichun. ahahah.

i think christmas eve is more fun, dont you? on eve, its like. oh goodie! christmas is cmg. by christmas, you wld think its ending. sad aint it.

2005-12-17T08:53:00.000-08:00

aren't you suprise i'm blogging? hahh. kinda frequent suddenly eh. i worked 12 hours today. 11am to 11pm. stupiiiiddddd. i think the branch at bugis is btr than fareast.

to xinying: dont be silly dear girl, hahaha.

is thr anything more? i dont think so. this post is gna be colourless since i blog so little.

2005-12-16T05:28:00.000-08:00

i've not been blogging alot. pretty tired and all. but the next seven days is going to get worse!

i'm workg back the same job, just thats its at a different outlet. now its in far east lvl 1. drop by ok! xD four an hour, from 11am to 10.30pm. tiring, but i'm gna try and slog it out for the next seven days.

p.s my arms are aching from all that swimming.

2005-12-11T05:20:00.000-08:00

you ought not to read this if you're a christian. i'm gonna be slightly vulgar and might ruin your day. take your own risk by crossing the line then.

i knew you're gonna read it anyway.

thr's this irritating guy who added me on msn. i really feel like flicking him off to the furtherest planet ever! GOD how i hate him. he's infuriating!!

somehow i find that i kinda hate guys. well MOST guys. somehow i feel disgusted. some people are really revolting. in the next paragraph you may find me a bit childish but i feel so sick about it. i decided to say this to him before i blocked and deleted him.

'goodBYE and have a nice day. thanks for all your emoticons you simply make my day. and please understand that people get irritated with ' hihi, what are you doing'. especially to a stranger. some dumb freak you are. and yes, i haven't regretted meeting someone like you, old and immature. i swear to Lucifer that you'll be having leprosy by your mid thisties. damn i'll be rofl.

NOT STOPPING YOUR FUCKING STUPID EMOTICONS?
sorry, i dont like to make a fool of myself like you do.'

i kinda feel as though i went slightly overboard and being too mean and all. but he's been irritating me for ages!

and its back to school for meeting tmr, IN THE MORNING. *sulks

2005-12-10T09:33:00.000-08:00

ok. parents are bugging me to sleep. so i guess i'll make this short and quick.

i truly enjoyed my day with marisse. you cld see from our pictures. which is in the connections page. THANKS FOR MAKING MY DAY MARISSE.

cant wait to go out together again on monday. (:

and yunhan, yes fret not. tmr its gna be YOU, you and YOU.

and darren, you btr take care in bangkok.

2005-12-01T20:54:00.000-08:00

i never knew zathura was sooo nice! infact, its better than just like heaven. i rate it 9/10. i never believe full marks, so yah. that's the highest!

dont love bring you joy peace and happiness. what about artificial love? just on the surface. i mean, i do admit that looks is a bonus and the first thing you look at is looks, BUT maybe that person aint nice at all, its just all abt the looks.

i'm not meaning anything, but take for example: you have such beautiful eyes. i love thm as much as i love you.

so does it mean that if you close thm, you won't look pretty anymore? ( or even gorge thm out ) cos its your eyes that makes you look beautiful. i love your eyes as much as i love you. if i hate thm, i hate you too. right or wrong? someone please tell me.

you see what i mean whn they say sth about your features?

how about another case: you bring me so much joy and love, i feel as though i want to see you everyday. your cheerfulness and your innocence. thanks for making me feel loved.

some things never change. like your inner beauty. once you have thm, you always have. if you change characterwise, you'll still be the same person inside no matter what.

now do you see the difference?

comments are welcomed on the tagboard.

2005-11-27T18:47:00.000-08:00

ok. i've had a wicked weekend.
with marisse.

on saturday i reached hme at 3. we went town at 9. catch a movie at 1am. for some weird reason. started with aldric timo hongyi and cant rmb his name. ended with marisse.
on sunday i reached hme at 4. we went like, ok. kinda like many places. but i started the day with nicole, went to great world. and thn to kristian's house with andrew and her. somewhat lah. ended the night with marisse stacy akira and JH in town thn at JH's house.

pretty interesting weekend right? have to work for the next three days. =(

strange enough. i feel bad. hahah. i tried wine, first time i rly wanted to try. but the wine suck naturally, not that i say it does! if you get what i mean. sld have seen stacy face when she drank the cup down with akira. and after that was heineken. is that how you spell it? anyway , i had my angel (marisse ) and my devil (JH ) telling me whether i shld try. i ended up trying. and god does it taste funny.

so much for liquor. haha.

i took some pictures. uploading soon.

2005-11-23T08:25:00.000-08:00

today, work wasn't so bad. (:
i learnt alot about LV actually.
monogram, multicoloured monogram.
mini monogram. denim monogram.
and so much more. pretty cool ehs.

i shant blog too much, i have to sleep early.

GOOD BYE TO XINYING, going shanghai.
HELLO TMR, i'll be meeting you soon.
SEE YOU CHARMAINE, we'll make thm gasp in awe. (:

2005-11-20T06:29:00.000-08:00

i caught two shows today. and i tell you, cedric diggory in harry potter is pretty cute. (:
thanks amanda nicole darren and everyone else for everythg tdy. i rly had fun. but the fact that i still got work tmr rly suck.

harry potter and the goblet of fire
show's pretty exciting. and everyone's like grown up. they didn't show the part whr cho kissed harry. and victor krum is not good looking at all. but overall's pretty nice. i wldn't mind watchg it again. the show's a little funny too! hahah.

PRIME
trust me, its boring. so loovveyyy and kissssyyyyy. EWWWW. ahahah. story line's a total yawn lah. definitely not a good show.

my next show will be just like heaven. i want to watch it! but i didn't get a chance, up till now. =( sucky.

TIP OF THE DAY: even if you're gay, never dress girly. DO NOT.
i repeat, DO NOT.

happy birthday haziq~

2005-11-18T18:14:00.000-08:00

this is going to be my fourth day at work.
not exactly my fourth, but as in my fourth continuous day.
the hours are gruelling and it really sucks.

alright, if you are wondering why i'm complaining, let me explain to you.

firstly, me and yunhan are suppose to work on alternate days.
secondly, she freaking went for camp.
thus, i had to work four days.

now let me explain to you the job scope and the working hours.

firstly, its from noon till 1030.
and on fridays and saturdays, noon till 11.
secondly, the pay is low bcos i'm a parttimer.
which in fact, makes it $30 a day.
third, i had to stand throughout the day.
wondering about breaks?
you buy your food, bring it back to the shop and eat behind the cashier.
once you're done, you start work.

the job, if you're wondering why i never say in the first place, which i actually did.
sales assistant.

2005-11-10T19:36:00.000-08:00

i'm gna catch a movie today with nicole! aahhah.

got tdy off bcos thr was two new comer in the shop. i'm gonna work at fareast frm 16nov onwards. till the end of nov. yup. thn i enjoy!

sorry i haven't been updating alot, kinda busy. with work and the cantonese serials. xD

i went shopping with yuhan ytd anyway. she got a off day and i wasn't working. like finally! we went to bugis and town. so weird, we both trying to avoid that shop. HAH. i spent a total of $47 on a few things. lets just say 5 items. (: cheap eh! i learnt to shop cheap. use to get a top for like 30+ . ahah.

in case your wondering, i got into 3e1. got ever subject i wanted. LUCKY ME!
english`
cheena`
emaths`
amaths `
physics`
chemistry`
biology`
combined geography`

2005-11-04T17:18:00.000-08:00

heyall!

i've been tied down by work. cmg back anrd 11+ 12. horrid isn't it. starts at 12. no choice since i'm wrkg as sales assistant.

anyways! on thusday was my sister's friend's bday. and we all celebrated. all but my sister. almost everyone thought she was overseas. actually, my sister rented a elmo mascot costume. (: i show u some pictures another day. i'm lazy to elaborate. but at the restaurant, 'elmo' walk aend every table before cmg to ours. no one knew! all of thm were taking pictures with elmo w/o knwing that it's my sister. ahah! i got pictures!

psst: i did sth for amanda pang.

2005-10-31T05:15:00.000-08:00

i got the job.

*sings in the rain*

OH! first time as a patient in the hospital. and guess what! i have nth wrong with my bone. i went for 3 irritating xrays tdy. everythg was really FAST! lol. got appointment at KK. doc just got me to go back for physiotheraphy. (: aint it cool. ><

when i went in, thr were like 7 other people excluding my dad and i. four were trainees. or whatever crap. and one of the guy IS REALLY CUTE. xD serious, and being a trainee *whatever*, he has to be sth. xD he looks smart lah. ahah.

SAM! happy birthday! (:

hope u enjoyed your day. i enjoyed mine. so did wenting, gladys, yunhan and peifen. =D how 'coincidental'.

2005-10-29T07:00:00.000-07:00

i was looking at my past 200 posts. the very first one was 5th of march, and mind you. it was 2004. really, how long my blog posts dates back too. not really long, but if u kinda think about it, its long for a online blog. nxt march will be my second year! =D

one thing i was so glad i changed, is the way i typed. THANK GOD. looking back, i think it was kinda dumb with all those; ish, halp, mish, agen, dis, marrh.

ugh.

i bought the bag! ahahah! i'm gna carry it for school next yr. cost me a bomb, but i guess. yaaahh.

job-hunting was pretty fun! lol, not entirely job hunting. but i did look out for jobs, might be getting one. HOPE SO. the lady will call me. its at marine parade. sounds kind of far doesn't it? i got direct bus though. sweet!

HOPE AND PRAY.
HOPE ,
HOPE!

2005-10-28T03:49:00.000-07:00

this is my 200th post.
as well as the end of secondary 2 life.
next year's secondary 3!

and i knw what subjs i want alrd. (:
english, obviously;
cheena;
A and E maths;
biology, physics, chemistry;
combined geography.
if not, combined history.
if that is the combination for humans.

i saw this bag at HEEREN that i really really REALLY want so badly. xD its so suede. white nike sling bag. only a few outlets have in singapore. and the guy cld only reserve it untill tmr, so like. YAH. really have to get it. cost- 100bucks. to be more precise, 99.75bucks. but, 0.25 difference? big deal. =/

i just saved enough actually, whn i went today, it wasn't on display alrd. thank god i asked. they kept it. the last one. so yah, got till tmr. and i'm gna get it! lol.

2005-10-27T03:31:00.000-07:00

yup. this was before. you wld understand what i mean if u bother to scroll down and read my previous post.

2005-10-27T03:20:00.000-07:00

this picture in the background, wasn't suppose
to be this way.

i dont knw if u guys understand what i mean but, thr use to be a mother holdg a child's hand on the edge of the waters on the left of the picture facing the lake. i just kinda took it off. :x

the picture was bittersweet, now, its just bitter.
and lonely
and solitary
and dull.

perhaps, if i'm free, i'll upload the picture. thn u'll knw what i mean. (:

2005-10-26T07:34:00.000-07:00

people dont just vanish.
it is a molecular impossibilty.

agreed.

anyways, if ure wondering why i'm online, i didn't go camp. i got a 10days MC in fact. (:

alright alright. i feel like changing my template, perhaps white or so. i should,

shouldn't i?

SHUWEN! can we pretty please hang out tmr?

2005-10-25T06:04:00.000-07:00

you are dead brilliant!

and roy's a monkey.
fancy calling me a pig!

;if i can fly, u hate bananas.
- to roy